Beginning of April update

March came and went and I did not update...sorry.  So many trying/frustrating/wonderful/awe inspiring things have happened in the last month.  The more I am around these kids the more my heart expands with love for them.   I cannot even express in words how my heart almost hurts from loving them so much.  I know they have only been with us for four months but I cannot imagine that they haven't always been here.  Yet, at the same time I remember clearly how things were before they came.  I am so grateful they are in our lives.  

  Today was a hard day.  It had some nice points but it was a hard day emotionally.  I know God's timing is sometimes painful but always perfect....right now its just at the painful point, I am sure it will make sense later on though.  Today was the 30 day mark from after the TPR papers had been filed with the court.  We had to wait 30 days after the filing to make sure BM doesn't appeal before we can work on finalization. We have been counting down the days until today.  BM waited 29 days.  I know this is a last ditch effort on her part and others but it stinks that we are not going to be able to even start the process to finalize the adoption until after the appeal is heard.  I will just pray that that happens soon and that it thrown out quickly.  

I think I am too tired and a bit too disappointed/heartsore/angry/frustrated/etc...to write coherently tonight.  I will try to update soon.  Hopefully with better news.    Please send prayers/happy thoughts/positive vibes/whatever positive cosmic thing you believe in our way. Thanks!