monthly update

OK so here is the monthly update... I keep thinking I will have more time to write and become better at this but....well you can see how well that has worked out.  

The littles have been with use for a month and a day now.  There have been ups and downs.  I have been getting a crash course in Momma-hood.  The therapists tell my parents that they have to be the "Parents" and I have to be a sister.  Do they have any idea of what it is like to take on and raise three sibs at the same time??? I do not think so!  I think they are only used to people adopting one child at a time.  In that case, I could understand their reasoning.  Its part of the bonding process.  However, with three littles that is crazy!  Mom could take care of things on her own when Dad is a work.  I know she would be fine but it makes things easier to have help.  As I have written these few sentences I have had to stop and run to check on one sib in the bathtub (The 6 year old. The others DO NOT ever get left alone in the bath!) to make sure she is soaping up and then I had to go on a search for a treasured toy car for another because he cannot go to sleep without it!  

I cannot tell if this experience is making me want to stay away for parenthood or long for it. Right now its a toss up.   Most days, even though I am exhausted and sometimes frustrated by the kiddos I know in the depths of my soul that I want littles of my own.  I long for it.  However, I am OK with just getting on the job training for now:)

  I have been getting jealous of my brother Justin and my friend Katrina.  The kids will scream their names in joy and run to them.  Do they have that reaction to me? Nope.  I know it is because I have to change their diapers, put them in timeouts, wipe their noses and all that fun stuff.  Do they run to me when they get hurt or want a kiss? Yes, and that is what makes it all worth it.  I may not be in the role of favorite aunt or big sib but that is OK because I am in the role of big sis/mom. 

I know this is a super short blog tonight but I can barely keep my eyes open and I have to get up early to have family portrait taken and I still haven figured out what I am wearing!

Many Blessings to you all! Merry ________ (insert holiday of your choice!)