work work work

OK so new news:  We have been up to see the kids twice now.  They are a handful but they have captured my heart.  I love them more than words can express.  I feel like a big sister but also sort of like a new mom too.  I would do anything to make sure these kids are kept safe from harm.  

However, just because i love them doesn't mean i always like them.  At times i feel resentful of them changing my life in such a huge way.  I even feel resentful of them making me fall in love with them.  They have caused me to

 open myself up in a way I haven't ever 

done.  Its scary and I don't always like it.  I wouldn't change them coming into my life though.  I wouldn't want them to go anywhere else!  They are family.  They may not have been born into this family but none the less they are still family.  

The kids will not be coming to stay on the 29th as posted in the previous blog but they will be coming for a visit from thursday the 28th to saturday the 1st!  I am excited to show them around their new home but i kind of wish we had one more week to get ready.

We have been working extremely hard trying to get everything done.  

We are close but whether we will get everything finished before they

 come, i just don't know.  One of the 

major projects we did was to level out the back yard.  We had to breakdown the awning.  We had a contractor come in and build us a wall so that we could fill in the middle layer with dirt.  We ordered 9 cubic yards of dirt and carted it into the back yard.  That wasn't enough.  So we ordered another 15 cubic yards of dirt that day and carted it into the back yard.  One cubic yard of dirt is

 about equal to a ton of dirt.  So in total we hauled about 24 tons of dirt.  

I am so tired right now that I want to cry.  I would love a day simply to be lazy.  I am fighting getting the cold that is going around.  Mainly I think it is the shear exhaustion that is causing me to have a weakened immune sy

stem.  K had the nasty bug and I spent the last two weekends trapped in a car with him coughing out the lovely little germs.  Not his fault but fighting the germs and being utterly wiped has been making me feel like i am constantly fighting getting a cold.  I keep trying to go to bed early but end up staying up late.  I am so tired at the end of the day that i cannot get to sleep.  

Oh well it will get better.  Things will never be the same again but that would be boring right?   Who wants to be stuck doing the same things over and over again?   Hopefully I will start to adjust to the new busyness of life!